I’ll Never Ever Trust Again

You know exactly how I feel about others
You know that I’m reluctant to trust people,
Coz I fear them cheat me
You know I expect 100% trustworthiness from the person that I trust.You knew each and everything about me,
Because I trust you, and you asked me to trust you.
You are a person who always likes to stay happily
Your happiness is different from my happiness
I have seen many things you do,Why you do those because that brings you happinessYou wont do anything to bring sorrow..!
Your little happy moments brought me pain and sorrow.
But I need to bare that because you are happy
I never spoke about it,I never let you know that I know everything that you do.I never put restrictions,I never command you,I never gave any orders.I let you to live the way you like
Coz everyone likes to live in his or her own style I stayed by your side everyday,I came with you everyday to your doorstep to make you feel safe and cared I have no words to say that I love you everyday,As you do always But one thing that I can assure, that is I’m not lying.From the very first meeting I started to suffer.
I bared every pain, even though I knew that I have been cheated
Each an every time that you cheat me,
I thought, Oh this may be the last time that she is cheating me
But my count is endless
You stole me happiness, peaceful mind, my dreams, my hopes, my sleep. etc You may be sleeping nicely every night
I do the opposite of that every time .Do you know how would a person feel.If he knows that his very trustworthy person has cheated him .Do anyone treat you lovingly when they know you have been cheated them.Do anyone keep trust you.Does anyone can trust them again .I have lost my sleep,Coz since the morning till the night what I experience is cheating,I suddenly wake up at night with fear And I cannot remember how many days I slept peacefully since I met you Morning to night how many lies that you tell me
I believe every your words, coz I love you.How can I think you are lying me.Coz you are the one and only oneWho knows my every secret, the only one whom that I trust
How can I believe that one and only my trustworthy person is lying.If this is so how can I ever believe another.I’ll never ever trust a person again.DAMN

love .

Tomorrow will be better than today

its midnight and my eyes just staring at the wall opposite no sleep, no dreams, i sit and watch the drama

unfolding before me; like an empty canvas waiting for an artist i wait in anticipation

wondering when and wondering why; i did all i could, so i believe so, what is happening is beyond my grasp

and i can only watch as a mere spectator; a mere spectator in my own life

one moment its all the way up, the next its hanging in balance, the tension is nerve wracking;

patience is all i have and patience is all that i need as i watch the things unfold and let things take shape at its own pace; i waited a long time for this, so what difference it is going to make to wait a little bit more but for how long should i be the villian in my own life; i wish i could answer all the questions running in my mind, i wish i could end all the battles being fought inside, i wish i do not have to wait for long i wish, i hope and i believe (maybe) tomorrow will be better than today :)